"If you look for truth,
you may find comfort in the end;
if you look for comfort you will not get either comfort or truth
only soft soap and wishful thinking to begin,
and in the end, despair."
- C. S. Lewis
Sunday, June 20, 2010
Thursday, June 17, 2010
Good Eats - RAW
For dinner last night, great sushi with a great ambiance at......
1225 RAW SUSHI & SAKE LOUNGE
1225 Sansom Street
Philadelphia / 215.238.1903
http://www.rawlounge.net/index.html
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
A comedy sketch on ....well....eye doctors
And yes, I've probably thought everything that he said the doctor was saying during his eye exam.
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
Quotable Quotes
Experience: that most brutal of teachers. But you learn, my God do you learn.
- C. S. Lewis
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
Identity Crisis
In bible study tonight, we were discussing how we see ourselves and our identity, in view of God's holiness. And the question was asked, "What do you think is the look on God's face when he thinks of you right now?"
I was the first to answer, and I answered with my honest gut reaction, I said "disgust."
I see God's heavenly face filled with disgust. Disgust at dealing with the same sins, disgust at my lack of faithfulness, disgust at my lack of trust, disgust at everyday struggles, disgust with my hypocrisy, and so on and so forth.
And then I read this: "If you imagined God as anything but overjoyed with you, you have fallen into a performance mindset. Because the gospel truth is: In Christ, God is deeply satisfied with you."
God, satisfied with me?? Not only satisfied, but overjoyed??
Ha, yeah right! I can understand it intellectually, but I can't grasp it emotionally.
This is obviously an important component of my faith that I have yet to properly understand. I always imagine that if I were "better", he would love me more, approve of me more, be more merciful towards me. I know....it sounds juvenile, but when I break it down, that's how I'm living my life.
And in all honesty, living this way is just draining, physically and mentally draining...it "saps the joy and delight out of following Jesus."
I've become acutely aware today of the fact that I need to recognize my freedom and feel that joy that can only come in Christ. To be ever joyful that He has already made me His daughter, that He has already clothed me in righteousness, and that the work is already done!
I was the first to answer, and I answered with my honest gut reaction, I said "disgust."
I see God's heavenly face filled with disgust. Disgust at dealing with the same sins, disgust at my lack of faithfulness, disgust at my lack of trust, disgust at everyday struggles, disgust with my hypocrisy, and so on and so forth.
And then I read this: "If you imagined God as anything but overjoyed with you, you have fallen into a performance mindset. Because the gospel truth is: In Christ, God is deeply satisfied with you."
God, satisfied with me?? Not only satisfied, but overjoyed??
Ha, yeah right! I can understand it intellectually, but I can't grasp it emotionally.
This is obviously an important component of my faith that I have yet to properly understand. I always imagine that if I were "better", he would love me more, approve of me more, be more merciful towards me. I know....it sounds juvenile, but when I break it down, that's how I'm living my life.
And in all honesty, living this way is just draining, physically and mentally draining...it "saps the joy and delight out of following Jesus."
I've become acutely aware today of the fact that I need to recognize my freedom and feel that joy that can only come in Christ. To be ever joyful that He has already made me His daughter, that He has already clothed me in righteousness, and that the work is already done!
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